I just have to share that today was a good day. After I planted my rose bushes, I was so exhausted from the digging part and fighting with some of the so-called "rocks" we have in the soil, I came into the house and collapsed into my chair. As I rested, my whole perspective on the day finally changed. It's so weird how intense my emotions were and am half embarrassed by it -- but it's funny when one is sleep deprived how ridiculous one's perspective is.
Then, I received a phone call from my youngest daughter.......She then asked how my week had been. One thing, we JOHNSON's do is talk very openly now about our emotions. And they made me promise to talk with them. But I forewarned them that "you better be careful as to what you ask for."
So I opened up to her and told her what I have been "feeling" leading up to yesterday. And, once again, when I finally was completely honest I was able to get past whatever the heck was eating at me inside. And, yes, I have to admit, I really, really feel such relief.
As the night progressed, I was enjoying my family time -- yes, I made that wonderful meal and they loved, loved, loved it -- as did I. I retired for the night and slept like a baby. Only woke up twice but no big deal -- went right back to sleep. I was unconscious and no dreams last night. Just slept deeply.
I wake up today and was ready for today's adventure down to San Diego with my family. And what a day we had. My daughter had to have a medical test; as I waited, I was able to knit like a crazy fool. Loving every moment of it. (FYI- her medical test didn't hurt and went really well). ANYWAY..........
We went to a coastal restaurant after her test and celebrated. Nice place and had a chance to enjoy the seagulls and harbor seals. Made me feel a little homesick for the Northcoast.........But I still lov the weather down here so much better.
Today has been a good day overall and am looking FORWARD and not BACKWARDS any longer.
It's supposed to rain all weekend and am looking forward to getting some rain! So Cal is lacking big time in that department. I want to nest!
I'm hanging in there and doing fine and looking forward again. I'm so lucky to be alive and well.
I know the prayers and good wishes are coming through big time. I feel it! I feel it! And, more importantly, I know it.
Ciao, Ciao
Then, I received a phone call from my youngest daughter.......She then asked how my week had been. One thing, we JOHNSON's do is talk very openly now about our emotions. And they made me promise to talk with them. But I forewarned them that "you better be careful as to what you ask for."
So I opened up to her and told her what I have been "feeling" leading up to yesterday. And, once again, when I finally was completely honest I was able to get past whatever the heck was eating at me inside. And, yes, I have to admit, I really, really feel such relief.
As the night progressed, I was enjoying my family time -- yes, I made that wonderful meal and they loved, loved, loved it -- as did I. I retired for the night and slept like a baby. Only woke up twice but no big deal -- went right back to sleep. I was unconscious and no dreams last night. Just slept deeply.
I wake up today and was ready for today's adventure down to San Diego with my family. And what a day we had. My daughter had to have a medical test; as I waited, I was able to knit like a crazy fool. Loving every moment of it. (FYI- her medical test didn't hurt and went really well). ANYWAY..........
We went to a coastal restaurant after her test and celebrated. Nice place and had a chance to enjoy the seagulls and harbor seals. Made me feel a little homesick for the Northcoast.........But I still lov the weather down here so much better.
Today has been a good day overall and am looking FORWARD and not BACKWARDS any longer.
It's supposed to rain all weekend and am looking forward to getting some rain! So Cal is lacking big time in that department. I want to nest!
I'm hanging in there and doing fine and looking forward again. I'm so lucky to be alive and well.
I know the prayers and good wishes are coming through big time. I feel it! I feel it! And, more importantly, I know it.
Ciao, Ciao
Love you, Lynn! Sorry I don't write much (never) but I think of you all the time and I love being able to "keep up with you" via your blog. My best to you and the family!
ReplyDeleteHi Lynn,
ReplyDeleteI fully understand how being sleep deprived changes one's perspective. I remember a time laying in bed not sleeping and watching the patterns on the ceiling dance in their own little squares. I couldn't help but laugh. Nothing like being in great pain, not able to sleep and watching patterns dance in front of your eyes.
I am ready for some sunshine here. Been raining the last few days, and we are beginning our 10 day vacation. Planning on a few day trips with an overnighter here or there. One with her son and one by ourselves. Not sure where just yet, but doesn't really matter since it is all new to me.
Be well Lynn.
Peace